Melancholia

There are times when I don’t understand what I should be feeling. I feel scared and everything that’s in my mind seems to just disappear. Maybe they’re worthless after all, they’re just words – meaningless now. Somehow, I tell myself to just befriend silence and maybe everything will be alright. But even silence is deafening and overwhelming. I turn to solitude and he becomes my confidante, my solace- in him I find joy.

Somehow, solitude has made me see the world’s wonders, he made me see what I’ve been missing - that there’s a world out there waiting to be explored, to be discovered, to be traveled. I’ve been locked out of it for so long; locked inside a box with no light at all seeping in.

 

I can finally let go – maybe I longed to let go of something that I know I can never hold on to. Maybe that fact has been there all along. I can finally see – the world, all of it. I shall let go of the sadness, the hurt and the pain – never to look back. Saying goodbye in hopes of something much brighter.

//Studded Collar Top, a gift//

//Aztec Skirt from Dress Diaries//

//Ankle Booties bought from Modernosense//

//Neon Spikes Necklace & Headband from Sugar-Rush//

Yesterday,  I cleaned out my room and got rid of the things that I didn't need and want anymore. It feels really good to see the final look of the room after I applied my magic. HAHA :D It looks more organized, more fresh, stress-free. Something as simple as cleaning your room will make one sleep easier so I always make it a habit to clean my room every so often. Sorry I cannot post photos of my room – it’s too private-a-thing for me to post. Maybe soon if I feel more comfy about it. LOL. 

I do hope you’re all having a great day =) I just came from Church and though the entry up there seems to sad, I just want to write again and post what I really feel. Anyway, I just wanna say "Ahh, weekends, how I love and adore you!"